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  A PLACE WITHOUT YOU

  By Jewel E. Ann

  This book is a work of fiction. Any resemblances to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales are purely coincidental.

  Copyright © 2018 by Jewel E. Ann

  ISBN: 978-1-7320897-6-1

  Kindle Edition

  Cover Designer: ©Sarah Hansen, Okay Creations

  Photo: ©Rafael Catala

  Cover Model: Adrián Pedraja Barrientos

  Formatting: BB eBooks

  Dedication

  For Mom

  I’m glad you located the G-spot.

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Dedication

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Chapter Twenty-Six

  Chapter Twenty-Seven

  Chapter Twenty-Eight

  Chapter Twenty-Nine

  Chapter Thirty

  Chapter Thirty-One

  Chapter Thirty-Two

  Chapter Thirty-Three

  Chapter Thirty-Four

  Chapter Thirty-Five

  Chapter Thirty-Six

  Chapter Thirty-Seven

  Chapter Thirty-Eight

  Chapter Thirty-Nine

  Chapter Forty

  Chapter Forty-One

  Chapter Forty-Two

  Chapter Forty-Three

  Chapter Forty-Four

  Chapter Forty-Five

  Chapter Forty-Six

  Chapter Forty-Seven

  Chapter Forty-Eight

  Chapter Forty-Nine

  Epilogue

  Acknowledgments

  Also by Jewel E. Ann

  About the Author

  CHAPTER ONE

  DON’T SWEAT IT. Everything is temporary.

  I stare at the words on my thoroughly dented metal water bottle as I wait for my dad in the crowded, three-star hotel lobby filled with music enthusiasts. This will be the most epic three days I’ve ever had with my dad, and we’ve had a lot.

  “Where are you?” I answer my phone, picking at the frayed hem to my high-waisted cutoffs accompanying my red crop top and tons of beaded bracelets, necklaces, and dangly earrings.

  “Sweetheart, I’m still at home. I think I ate some bad sushi last night, and since then I’ve been praying to the porcelain god. I’m afraid I can’t go. Can you still get back home? Has the plane left?”

  “Wait. What? You’re not coming?” His home in Oceanside, California is only a two-and-a-half-hour drive to our hotel in Indio. He has to make it.

  “Henna, I’m drenched from a cold sweat, painful stomach cramps have crippled me, and I’m not sure I can make it to the bathroom without shitting my pants, let alone spend hours in the car. I’m so incredibly sorry.”

  “Oh, Dad … I’m sorry. That’s awful.” And gross. I drop down onto a chair that a gentleman vacated when his wife arrived with their key cards.

  “Next year. I promise. No sushi.” He tries to laugh, but all I can hear is the physical strain and weakness in his voice. “I’ll fly you out in a week or two, and we’ll do something else before school ends. Then we’ll have two weeks on the beach together this summer.”

  I nod to myself, biting on my gray painted thumbnail to channel my disappointment into something more sympathetic. “That’s fine. I’ll send you video and some photos.”

  “Henna, you have to go back to Colorado. You can’t be at Coachella alone. It’s not safe for a young girl like you to be there without a chaperone.”

  “Dad, I’m an adult. It’s a music festival. I’ll be fine.”

  “You’re eighteen. That’s not really an adult.”

  “I’ll be smart.”

  “Still. The answer is no.”

  “Mom sent …” I stop myself. General Mitchell Lane is not as free-spirited as the mother of his child. Something tells me that the stock of condoms my mom sent with me is not going to comfort him.

  “Mom sent what? A bodyguard?”

  “Not exactly.” I wrinkle my nose.

  “Then get back on that plane and go home. Okay?”

  I shake my head. It’s Coachella. The lineup is so sick. I could die just thinking about it. There’s no way in hell I am going back home before the weekend is over. “Okay. I’ll go home.”

  In three days.

  “Thank you, Henna. And again … I’m so sorry.”

  “No apologies. I’m sorry you’re not feeling well. I’ll see you in a couple of weeks. Love you.”

  “Love you too.”

  *

  THERE ARE TWO groups of people: those who love Coachella and those who have no clue what they are missing. I belong to the first group.

  Me: You’re the coolest mom ever, right?

  I grin, swiping out of my messenger screen to order a ride as I wait outside the hotel. Sushi-sick dad cancelled our reservation. Not cool.

  Juni: Your dad just called me.

  Juni … because my mom is too cool to be lumped into the “mom” group. So I call her Juni.

  Me: Of course he did.

  Juni: I’ll arrange your transportation home.

  Narrowing my eyes, I frown at the screen.

  Me: Such a waste of a dozen ready-to-use condoms that YOU sent with me. My first April as an adult—what happened to telling me to just “live?”

  Juni: Yeah, yeah. I already made arrangements for you to stay with Lauren, unless you have friends there who have room for you. Now that your dad’s not there, I’m feeling more maternal anxiety and worry.

  Me: I’ll figure something out.

  Juni: BE SAFE!!!

  Me: Will do. <3

  Sliding into the backseat of the Prius, I hug my bag to my chest as the opposite door opens.

  “Uh?” I slip out one of my earbuds, pausing my music, as I glance in the rearview mirror at the driver. “Did I get in the wrong car?”

  “You clicked ride share,” the driver says.

  “Oh. Okay.” I shrug and give the blond guy sliding in next to me a smile and an exaggerated once-over because he’s quite the snack.

  Jeans and cowboy boots are an interesting choice for a day in the desert.

  A few seconds later, he catches me assessing him and his hair again—buzzed close to his head on the sides and longer on the top. Did he forget his cowboy hat? That’s the real unsolved mystery in my head.

  His lips move. I stare at them for a few breaths before I realize he’s talking. My hand tugs out my earbud again.

  “Sorry. Did you say something?”

  “What are you listening to?” he asks in a voice as smooth as his Mediterranean eyes.

  “That’s kind of a personal question. Like asking my underwear color.”

  He grins. It’s all kinds of wicked. “Personal?” He shrugs. “I don’t know about that. Depends on the song … and the color.”

  “Amy Shark, ‘Adore.’ And red and silver polka dots.”

  “Mmm …” He nods slowly. “Good choice.”

  “The song?” I bite the corner
of my lower lip to control my grin.

  “The underwear.”

  My heart wakes up as if to say, “Whoa, is something going on here I should know about?”

  “Wanna see mine?”

  My eyebrows lift a fraction. “Your underwear?”

  He digs his phone out of his front pocket. “Do I look like a perv? My song.”

  Damn. He’s good. My tummy joins in on the little dance happening inside of me.

  Twisting his wrist, he shows me his phone screen.

  “Apocalyptica, ‘Nothing Else Matters.’ Hmm … that’s unexpected.” I let my gaze fall into his, a dangerous place to be. “You going to Coachella?”

  He nods several times, glancing over the seats to the road before us. “I’m working there.”

  “Oh, cool. Doing what?”

  He inspects my hair. I’d planned on changing clothes and doing something a bit more original with my crazy, dark auburn hair than a messy braid over one shoulder, but sushi dad took away my hotel room. Sexy stranger grins like either my question or my messy hair pleases him. “I’m an in-house tech—audio, lighting, video.”

  Dear God, he’s the full package, especially when that grin of his grows as I continue to violate him with my eyes. Maybe it’s just the lollipop I had on my way to the hotel. Everything seems aesthetically pleasing when I’m a little high.

  “So, I’ll know who to blame if the sound is a bit off while one of my favorite bands performs.”

  “You’ll know who to thank when it isn’t.” He leans toward the middle of the backseat. I follow his lead because I’m curious if he smells as good as he looks. “But I get this feeling that in your state, everything will sound good.”

  Ignoring his whispered accusation that I’m high, I sniff. “You smell like lemon.”

  He sticks his tongue out, revealing a half-melted lemon drop.

  I grin as we sit straight again. “Last year my mom brought back lemon drops from the Limoncello factory in Sorrento. They were amazing.”

  Sucking more intensely on his sour goodness, he nods slowly. “I’m sure they were. Sadly, I don’t think my lemon drop was made in Italy.”

  “That is incredibly sad.”

  He chuckles. Is he laughing at me?

  “Nice tats.” He nods to my arms.

  Holding them out, I admire my art. “They’re henna, like me.”

  “Like you?”

  “Yes. My name is Henna. And these will be much more intense tomorrow.”

  “Like you?” His teeth scrape along his bottom lip. It’s ridiculously sexy.

  “Are you flirting with me?”

  He chuckles. “We met less than five minutes ago. I have a little more tact than that.”

  “Tact? Like asking the color of my underwear?”

  He runs his hands over the legs of his jeans. Is he sweating? Am I making him sweat? That possibility gives me a whole other kind of high.

  “I didn’t ask. You freely offered that information. Besides, I have rules about flirting.”

  “Well, I despise rules, but you must share your rules anyway.”

  “Never flirt with someone who is not sober.” He stares out his window like his rule is the end of our friendly conversation.

  “Sober? Dude, this is as sober as I get.” Leaning forward, I shove down the waist of my shorts in back, exposing a long L-shaped scar.

  He glances over, forehead wrinkled.

  “If I sit too long or stand too long or do anything too long, life kinda sucks. But a little high can go a long way with making said life a lot less sucky.”

  Sitting back, I exhale. Sexy stranger seems at a loss for words.

  “Tell me, tech guy, do you have a name?”

  The driver stops at the crowded entrance.

  “Thank you,” we say while getting out of the car.

  Digging out my Coachella bracelet and All-Access Pass, I slip on my backpack and make several failed attempts to put the bracelet on my wrist amongst the other gazillion bracelets on my arms.

  Long, tan fingers take over, attaching it for me. I look up and go all gooey inside at how amazing my ride-sharing stranger looks with the wind messing up his surfer hair.

  “All-Access Pass. Lucky girl.”

  I nod without elaborating. Instead, I just stare at his eyes because they are worthy of my attention.

  “Bodhi.” He grins. “My name is Bodhi.”

  “Bodie? Like the ghost town in California?”

  “Bodhi like the sacred fig tree.”

  “Shut. Up.” My eyes pop out of my head. “For real? Your name is Bodhi. B.O.D.H.I?”

  He grins, but I can’t tell if it’s a duh-that’s-just-what-I-said grin or a you’re-so-gullible grin.

  “Henna and Bodhi. It’s so fucking poetic. Now comes the part where I inform you that we will marry some day and live in a small house nestled into the cliffside of Italy, overlooking the Amalfi coast, where we’ll have terraced groves of lemon trees, olive trees … and tomatoes. I love tomatoes.”

  Bodhi’s brows inch up his forehead.

  “And before you say no and get all weird on me, I’m not suggesting we do this right away. I have some serious traveling to do before settling into one location with a hot guy.” A long two-second delay later, I realize what I’ve just said.

  Amusement grows along his mouth like the sun sliding up the horizon in the early morning, giving me the brightest smile. I slip on my sunglasses. Bodhi and the desert sun are a bit too intense, even for me.

  “Henna, are you flirting with me?”

  A group of girls gather around us and snap a few photos of me before blending back into the sea of humans funneling toward the entrance. Bodhi gives them a narrow-eyed look and shifts his gaze to me for an explanation.

  I ignore the girls and his curiosity. “Yes, Bodhi, I’m shamelessly, unapologetically, working-my-ass-off flirting with you. The universe has spoken. We can’t ignore the universe.”

  A bold laugh escapes him. “Fate?”

  “Fate? No. Fate is nothing more than another word for happiness. We’re more than fate. We sound like something undeniable—Romeo and Juliet, Johnny and June, Beyoncè and Jay Z … Henna and Bodhi.”

  His parents have to be awesome like mine. I can’t wait to meet them.

  Glancing at his watch, he gives me that goodbye smile that should be outlawed. “Whatever strain of weed you’re on is clearly a good one. Don’t forget sunscreen, a hat, and if you don’t want a nasty cough by Monday, you should cover your nose and mouth with a bandana or scarf.”

  “Like … are you kidding me? Did you just give me a parental speech?”

  “I have to go.”

  “How will I find you?”

  He starts to walk toward the far entrance, tossing me a flirty grin over his shoulder. “Fate. Right?”

  “Fate. Schmate. Now you’re mocking me. Not cool, bae, not even a little.”

  I wait for him to look back at me one more time. I wait … and wait …

  Yes!

  As the crowd engulfs him from twenty yards away, he gives me one last glance.

  Dead. I’m dead because that’s the guy I’m going to marry. Henna and Bodhi—perfection! After taking a long swig of water, I stare at the words on my water bottle again.

  Don’t sweat it. Everything is temporary.

  CHAPTER TWO

  AFTER SLATHERING ON a ton of sunscreen and covering my braided hair with a big-ass hat, I make my way through security. Spilling into a diverse crowd milling in every direction, I shoulder my way to the first stage.

  Within hours, my clothes are drenched in sweat as the sweet smell of Coachella hangs heavily in the dusty desert air. Still—I love it.

  The intense energy of the festivalgoers has its own pulse that can be felt past the rhythm thumping from the various stages. It’s not a mingle fest. Everyone moves from stage to stage, dancing, singing their favorite lyrics, and drifting to the next stage to do it all over again.

  “Shit!” A
familiar voice grabs my attention.

  Waiting for the next act to set up, I glance past the barricades to the right of the stage and giggle at the man frowning at ketchup dribbled down the front of his white T-shirt. A blue-eyed gaze shifts from the mess on the white cotton to meet my gaze. Biting my lips together, my eyes widen as I snort another laugh.

  “Fate is working her ass off today.”

  He grins a unique blend of something goofy and incredibly sexy. Surfer sexy. No … it’s cowboy sexy. The blond hair and tan skin say surfer, but those perfectly fitted jeans and boots scream cowboy. And the name is that of my future husband.

  “I shouldn’t have gotten the fries.”

  My sober alertness mixed with the timbre in his voice has me taking a mental count of all the condoms in my possession.

  He steps toward me, using another french fry to wipe off the ketchup. It only makes it worse.

  “Henna.” Patricia, the tour manager for the band getting ready to take the stage, nods and smiles at me as she walks past ketchup guy.

  Bodhi looks over his shoulder at her and then back at me with a hint of confusion on his adorable face. I still can’t decide if I want to see him on a billboard wearing board shorts and holding up a surfboard, or if the thought of him on the back of a horse makes me weaker in all my girly parts.

  I smile at Patricia before quickly returning my attention to the mess of a man before me. “No.” I lean over the roped-off area, winking at the security guard eyeing me a few feet away. Stealing a french fry and popping it into my mouth, I lick the salt from my lips. “You just shouldn’t have gotten the ketchup.”

  He lifts an eyebrow. “Help yourself.”

  I grab another fry. “Thank you.” Tapping it on my bottom lip, I inspect his shirt. “You should take that shirt off before anyone else sees what a mess you’ve made.”

  He smiles. I like it a lot. Smiles are nothing new to me. I’ve seen a lot of them—mostly arrogant ones.

  “I don’t have another shirt here.” Dipping three fries at once into the ketchup, he tosses them into his mouth.

  “Your point?” I take two more fries, leaving him with two.

  “I’m pretty self-conscious about my body.”